Apr. 1st, 2008

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So, I feel really awkward for doing this, especially considering the recent events in my life. Things have been really interesting for me and of course, as usual, I need to write in my LJ about them. However, there is something more important that I want to talk about right now. Due to recent events, a really good friend of mine just became single. She's going through some very hard times, and I have to say that I support her through whatever hardships she may be going through.

On that note, I have to say that it's kinda funny how she and I met. To think that I met [livejournal.com profile] jilduck through the Furry Fandom and yet we were practically raised living 6 minutes down the road from each other, knew a lot of the same folks, even went to the same synagogue and had the same rabbi. Our personalities and interests mesh and such a weird but awesome way and I just feel that she's getting the raw deal right now. She's been through a lot lately, considering the eating disorder, the problems at her school, and overbearing Jewish mother (go figure), etc.

Then there's me. You know, for the longest time, I've known I was gay. I mean, I've known through most of high school, though I wouldn't finally admit it to myself until about 10th or 11th grade. Still, the thing that was pretty pervasive was the task of trying to convince myself that I was bisexual. I wanted to believe it. Hell, [livejournal.com profile] raspberryroo knows, I had a huge crush on her back in 2002 and 2003 while I was still trying to convince myself of these things. But here's the thing. I've known for a long time how to appreciate a woman's body. I may be homosexual, but that doesn't mean I can't appreciate beauty or find someone hot. It's just I don't have much of a physical reaction to it. I think a lot of you might understand that.

Another important part of my identity is my Judaism. Now a lot of know that I like to make fun of it on a consistent basis. But I've also helped a good friend of mine, [livejournal.com profile] fordshepherd through the conversion process and helped him get his stance on being a Jew. In this time, I've developed a bit more of an appreciation for it and so I think I may actually starting going to temple again. I know that I'm at least going to try and keep proper during Pesach/Passover and not touch any leven bread or leaven bread products. Maybe after that, I might even try and just eat a proper Kosher diet. I don't think I'd be entirely successful at first, but it would take some time.

So where am I going with this? Well, lately, I've found myself being legitamitely attacted to women lately. Not that I don't still want to do horrible things to Johnny Depp, because I still do. However, at the same time, I'd take Keira Knightly as well, if you get my drift. I've been doing a lot of soul searching as of late while I'm back in school taking classes once more and I've come to the most important realization: I'm in love with [livejournal.com profile] jilduck.

We've been friends for just over a year now, but in that time, we've bonded and enjoyed our common interests and such. She's sweet, intelligent, Jewish (she gets my jokes!), and understands me a lot, even more than I thought I understood myself. She got me into musical theatre and all sorts of things and I in return have been there for her to the best of my ability. However, considering the latest events, I'm going to feel really shitty for trying to get her on the rebound..but still... Jil, would you be interested in going out on a date with me sometime? We could go to Taza as a couple this next time instead of as a gay man and his fag hag, okay?
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Yeah. Me? With Jill? Yeah, that could only be a joke. Love her, but I'm still the homo-gay at this time.

Aside from that, if you thought that it was potentially too serious to be a prank, well, that was intended. Nothing like using some half-truths and lying by omission to get things across.

Happy April Fool's Day, folks.


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